Holly Madison Opened Up About Hugh Hefner And What It Was Like Living In The Playboy Mansion

by Gwendolyn Plummer
Gwen is a writer, reader, hockey fan, concert goer, and lunchtime enthusiast.

Of all of Hugh Hefner’s many girlfriends, Holly Madison is without a doubt one of his most famous. For years, Holly was always by Hugh’s side — until she suddenly announced their breakup in the mid-2000s.

Even though Holly and Hugh broke up, Holly remained a celebrity in her own right. And even now, nearly 10 years after she left Hugh, people are still interested in her story.

In a 2015 episode of Oprah: Where Are They Now?, Holly revealed that life in the Playboy Mansion — and life with Hugh Hefner — was not all it was cracked up to be. At points, she admits, she was miserable there.

According to Holly in the video below, there were some pretty strict rules inside the mansion.

She says that all the girls had to be home by 9 p.m. and were “just expected to kind of sit home and behave.” She also calls life in the mansion “traumatic,” and even says she felt “ashamed” of her choice to live there.

Around 2003, Holly admits, she actually thought briefly about ending her own life. She says she had lost her sense of identity and couldn’t see a future for herself.

Eventually, Holly decided to leave Hugh and the mansion. In the video below, she recalls Hugh leaving his will on the bedside table for Holly to read. In it, he had left her $3 million in what she thinks was a bid to make her stay. But Holly says she was “disgusted” by it.

Now, Holly’s life has made a complete 180. Today, she’s married to Pasquale Rotella, with whom she has two kids: Rainbow and Forest. She is active on Instagram, where she often shares photos of her loving family and her gorgeous home. She has even written two books about her time with Hugh and life afterwards — but she also appears to have moved on from him. She did not speak out after his death.

Check out the video below to hear more from Holly, and please SHARE this story on Facebook.

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Photos: Getty Images / David Klein / Stringer; Instagram / Holly Madison

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